oh, I don't mind your asking. I haven't been as stable as I could have been. since I got fired from the bookstore I used to work at in January I've been out of work, I'm not in college, I don't have my own place or much money or even a drivers liscence. plus being an emotional wreck. plus the fact that I'm insecure pretty much all the time, which makes me callous and arrogant. and an incident a couple days ago when I ate a handful of alprazolam and ended up obliviously causing a scandal. I can't say I blame her, I probably would have left myself long ago, but I still can't help feeling bad about it. she told me to call her when I get a job, but she thinks I'm a total loser and I don't even know if I want to see her anymore after this. ugh. thanks for listening.