I don't think I've ever failed to mention how lonely I am on this site, I guess I have toned it down a little seeing as how I have run through a few false starts and things with could-be friends who decayed as soon as i got a grip on them (my search for friends is like sifting through sand).
But now that intense lonliness is coming back, that feeling of isolation so sharp it hurts the deepest level of my existance to even comprehend it.
My soul aches for people who are like me - me being aches in yearning for acceptance and belonging. I NEED to feel like I am a part of something or I am going to get down again.
Aww hell...I AM down again. Its already too late.
Why can't I just find some people....I don't care who, but I need some real friends. It is lonliness in the extreme. It is physically damaging lonliness.
I am so lonely it causes me physical pain. I can't write anymore