Goodbye

Subject: Goodbye Wed May 09, 2007 12:00 am

I don't fit in anywhere. I'm here to say goodbye. It's time. I'm not coming back. Nothings ever good enough. Hana- thanks for the song redwings, i'll be listening to it when i leave. Bye outreach.

Tobias

Subject: I hope he comes back Wed May 09, 2007 12:42 pm

Oh geez...please let him come back ok.
He seemed to be doing ok for a while there confused

Subject: Re: Goodbye Thu May 10, 2007 1:29 am

tobias, dont run away, dont, know that i loved you x

Subject: Re: Goodbye Sat May 12, 2007 5:20 pm

sorry guys, like i told hana, i can't do it i'm a pussy, or it's destiny that i don't, well i've redirected my feelings again, i think i'm bipolar because i have no control over what i feel or say, .... well i had a dream last night... it was my heaven, it was called lake happy, it had everything, and even thoe reality sucks bollox, it made me feel happy, sorry i didn't wana freak you out maul...there will probly be many more times like that.... just stupid things that push me and i just drop so low... i'm back to recieve and give some advice!

Subject: Re: Goodbye Sun May 13, 2007 11:55 am

+Tobias+ wrote:: sorry guys, like i told hana, i can't do it i'm a pussy, or it's destiny that i don't, well i've redirected my feelings again, i think i'm bipolar because i have no control over what i feel or say, .... well i had a dream last night... it was my heaven, it was called lake happy, it had everything, and even thoe reality sucks bollox, it made me feel happy, sorry i didn't wana freak you out maul...there will probly be many more times like that.... just stupid things that push me and i just drop so low... i'm back to recieve and give some advice!

Jesus Christ man you scared me shitless!
I want you to know that even though I have never met you I care. Because you are experiecning the same illness. And we all need help, so try to tell your parents so you can get on some medacine and stop freaking me out!

Subject: Re: Goodbye Mon May 14, 2007 5:07 am

nice use of the word bollox tobias. i just want to say goodbye for a while. nothing serious, just a trip to the hospital for some investigative surgery. tobias i would like if you could try and keep on top of things here while im gone? im glad to see that you're still here, and its not cos you're a "pussy" its because its not meant to be x

Subject: Re: Goodbye Mon May 14, 2007 5:57 am

sure i will hana, i'm a pretty active member i think. =]

Subject: Re: Goodbye Tue May 22, 2007 7:29 pm

+Tobias+ wrote:: sorry guys, like i told hana, i can't do it i'm a pussy,

You can't do it 'cause you're NOT a pussy, and you know it. You can face this. I have thought about leaving this world too. But we're young, so much can still happen. What if you kill yourself, find out there really is a God or whatever you believe in, and he shows you how your life could have been. How in a few years from now, you're all better, living life to the fullest. Who knows, maybe even happily married, kids, career,... That's what has always stopped me, and why I just won't do it. Just think about it. You're so young, 16 for crying out loud, you barely lived. You can still go 5 times that length. I know you're depressed and wanna give up, so do I, but I've realized a lot since I was 16 (only 3 years you know). There's always something coming, that will make it worthwhile, even if you don't see it now. Who knows, of those 5 times, maybe only one will still suck huh? Come on man, you know you're better and stronger than that.