Cutting

The cutting corner. tell us your thoughts, your feelings and perhaps prevent yourself from physical harm. If that is not want you want then fine. tell us how you feel when you cut. Or whatever.
All things cutting are here,

MAUL

good idea.

I probably should post here, seeing as how i have heard voices the night before telling me to cut.
i was making those voices myself. I wanted to be confronting my desire rather than just stewing on it so i created this voice for my desire. I never acted on those things yet i look at my scars and remember just how easy it is. You just put the blade up against your skin and then rip it along. Then you feel the sting. And the burn, then the blood will come out...
I can remember watching ,myself bleed.
I wonder sometimes why i live. No-one listens to me. I might as well be dead, people die every day and i have no way to get out of this town. I just can't do it. But i want to. My mind is scattered. I am going to go and read a book.
Day of the Triffids by John Wyndham. Its pretty good. I like disaster novels, i like to think of the world ending because i wish it would.

Then i would feel useful. Then i would feel needed. That doesn't make sense. I don't care. It wasn't meant to.

Have you ever cut your veins? Or just skin? I know to make suicide succeed you need to cut your veins. And I've heard that if your veins were cut, but your suicide failed u may not be able to use your fingers properly for some time. Is that true?

Plorator wrote:

Have you ever cut your veins? Or just skin? I know to make suicide succeed you need to cut your veins. And I've heard that if your veins were cut, but your suicide failed u may not be able to use your fingers properly for some time. Is that true?

No idea, the veins didn't get severed. I was never really brave enough to get that deep. That would have hurt. ALOT.

And i think it was more a way of venting out frustration than actually killing myself, the pain was a way of exerting the inner torment.

Plorator wrote:

Have you ever cut your veins? Or just skin? I know to make suicide succeed you need to cut your veins. And I've heard that if your veins were cut, but your suicide failed u may not be able to use your fingers properly for some time. Is that true?

No idea, the veins didn't get severed. I was never really brave enough to get that deep. That would have hurt. ALOT.

And i think it was more a way of venting out frustration than actually killing myself, the pain was a way of exerting the inner torment.

things have been so hard. so, so hard. im havind a depressive episode, the first since the end of last summer. the first for 7 months. my mood has been like this for about a month now, and i feel, i feel like i want to cut. and not for the release, but because i dont know what else to do, i dont know how to make people listen to me, people only seem to think its really bad when you have the physicallities to prove it.

Hana wrote:

things have been so hard. so, so hard. im havind a depressive episode, the first since the end of last summer. the first for 7 months. my mood has been like this for about a month now, and i feel, i feel like i want to cut. and not for the release, but because i dont know what else to do, i dont know how to make people listen to me, people only seem to think its really bad when you have the physicallities to prove it.

Ugh, know what you mean. Been in a real dip myself lately, lots of bad stuff piling up and I can't bring myself to face 'em. The temptation is often there, but I don't know... I just don't give in to it anymore. I put the cutting behind me, and I'm glad I did. If I can now do this with cigarettes, weed, alcohol and the occasional miscellaneous drug, it's smooth sailing from there....


Ugh...

I've been Ignoring problems all my life... it's much easier... i'm actually very good a it the easy way...
realised that recently and i'm triyng to change.I guess i understand what you feel i also feel traped
I have an obcecive personality it's not as bad has it may seem i mean i can be in shit to my head and focus myself in something positive the problem are the thougts that get stuck in my mind.
when they get incontrolable i just go to the street for a walk
I guess we all are afraid of something but for some reason i'm strarting to care less about failing i'm already used to it,lol, every day that goes by i valorise more trying and the will to to achieve something than falling

"It's easy to fall down,the beauty is in getting up"

I've cut a few times, many years ago, but I never quite understood the impulse behind it. is it out of masochism, like you feel the need to physically punish yourself? like Wrek I've always used drugs (everything I could get my hands on from weed to heroin) and heavy alcohol intake, or sex, to momentarily shut out whatever I'm going through.

[quote]hana said things have been so hard. so, so hard. im havind a depressive episode, the first since the end of last summer. the first for 7 months. my mood has been like this for about a month now, and i feel, i feel like i want to cut. and not for the release, but because i dont know what else to do, i dont know how to make people listen to me, people only seem to think its really bad when you have the physicallities to prove it.


I know exactly how it feels like, when my simptons started something like 2 years ago no one noticed the fucking dissociation prevented me from having any social contact any decent conversation.It's like my throat was cut i wasn't able to talk and no one realised it...
It will be fine don't worrie we are here outreach is here

I've been cutting for a couple years now, I do it to block everything else thats going on in my life or numb what ever pain I'm feeling. I don't remember why I started but now I know I'm addicted. But I have gotten better I used to cut everyday now I just do it when I'm waaaaay down I get urges to do it normally but I've worked on ignoring them and keeping myself busy.

Umm...where I've cut is basically everywhere upper arms, forearms, wrist, fingers, palms of my hands, stomach, thigh, knee, bottom leg, ankles, on my feet, under my foot so everywhere.

Anyone who has questions I'm willing to answer if I know the answer. I saw someone asked if you cut your veins will you not be able to use your fingers is that true.

Yes its true because the blood clots and it makes blood flow getting to your hand impossible which results in not being able to work properly.

underthismask wrote:

I saw someone asked if you cut your veins will you not be able to use your fingers is that true.

Yes its true because the blood clots and it makes blood flow getting to your hand impossible which results in not being able to work properly.

Knew that I think... But for how long?

Plorator wrote:

underthismask wrote:

I saw someone asked if you cut your veins will you not be able to use your fingers is that true.

Yes its true because the blood clots and it makes blood flow getting to your hand impossible which results in not being able to work properly.

Knew that I think... But for how long?

This is guessing but I'm pretty sure its true and thats forever, you wouldn't be able to use them again.