Unsolvable Problem

I don't think I've ever failed to mention how lonely I am on this site, I guess I have toned it down a little seeing as how I have run through a few false starts and things with could-be friends who decayed as soon as i got a grip on them (my search for friends is like sifting through sand).
But now that intense lonliness is coming back, that feeling of isolation so sharp it hurts the deepest level of my existance to even comprehend it.
My soul aches for people who are like me - me being aches in yearning for acceptance and belonging. I NEED to feel like I am a part of something or I am going to get down again.
Aww hell...I AM down again. Its already too late.

Why can't I just find some people....I don't care who, but I need some real friends. It is lonliness in the extreme. It is physically damaging lonliness.
I am so lonely it causes me physical pain. I can't write anymore

i know what you mean. I think i'm back down because the season is changing. i've noticed that i only feel down in fall and winter. Well... i researched clinical depression and it's been known to come and go seasonaly. But that'd depression, not friends. I'll be your fucking friend! no one is on this site enough to keep me bussi latly. Come online more and we'll talk.

i no wat u mean maul, ive been haveing the same feeelings lately its like i just need someone to hug someonbe to catch me wen i ffall i just need a friend but ive been thinking about u ever since thoose feelings and it helps me its like your right behind me your watching my every move i love it i just wish it was real i wish you were with me to watch my every move and to take care of me. wen u get down like u are u need to realize that u arent alone and that your....loved by people you dont even no care or love you hang in there my frieend im always available to talk
Jill

Thanks for the support guys, its good to know that at least someone hears my thoughts.
I feel really bad for typing here since I haven't done any school work for the past two days...
Yeah I've been bludging trying to make myself feel better...

bludging??