Hows your day been today?

So u r saying u have no life at all or what? You are not alone. Its 1:36 pm and I just woke up and now i'm thinking about breakfast. Good for me that I am still hungry everyday. Seems its a dinner time right now but whatever.
Oh, Maul u said everyone are gone. In what definition...?

I have to admit i didn't express myself well i do have people in my life

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So u r saying u have no life at all or what? You are not alone. Its 1:36 pm and I just woke up and now i'm thinking about breakfast. Good for me that I am still hungry everyday. Seems its a dinner time right now but whatever.
Oh, Maul u said everyone are gone. In what definition...?

they aren't dead if thats what u thought i meant, although for all i know they could be, the just haven't been here in a very long time.

Don't expect too many replies from me at the time. Real life is keeping me a bit occupied. But I try...

Maul Twilight wrote:

Although despite the idea having its brilliance sadly the people involved don't turn up as regularly as i would like (every day would be good so i could feel needed) and some of them seemed to have abandoned the forum altogether such as Tobias, Hana, Nick, SilverXRain. They came once it seems then never again.

hey! i had a reason, big meanie, i lost my password, im a fantastic administrator ill be here more often, im sorry.

at first when i created this i was very "oh i hope more people join" now im happy with the select few, a wider community would be alienating, like school for the lot of us(except yyou maul, mr home school, wish id of been home schooled. ) but im happy, and if more ppl join thats great. but i promise, ill be here. someone has to change the colour every 6 weeks dont they?!

xxx

oh and im gonna start messaging the ppl tht havent been here in a while, i have access to their emails so i can drop them a line and say, hey, you ok?!

this might sound silly but whatever...

I went for my regular walk i was climbing the hill when i realised something was wrong(i live near 2 elementary schools) something like 20 kids grabed to the fences shouting to anyone that walked by...2 ladys passed they didn't even looked to the kids i started walking faster i was already imagening what they wanted
has i reached near the school i heard the word ball, they were playing football and the ball jumped the fence, they started indicating were it was
it got stuck in some bushes i grabed the ball and gave it back thank you they said

it's not the 1º time that this happens hahahaaha...

reminds myself with their age

my days been extremely boring

I couldn't get to sleep last night until 8:30 a.m. then I slept till 5:30 at night and then I got on here and here I am so yea awesome day

i hate it when that happens!!! i had sleep pak training and ive been hitting 2/3am at the latest most nights.

i went to the beach today and went poi spinning. lovely jubbly

its only 2.30pm in the after noon.


ive only been up one and half hours. and i have so much to do, and i just cannot do it. awesome.

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Hows your day been today?

Thinking about what's better - rope or knife. Damn I'm scared that I will be able to do this for real.

what do you mean rope or knife?

you can talk to us if you want

BrunoMiguel's right, talk to us. If you voice it, you might see that its not the right thing for you, right now. And to be honest, you would of done it, there would of been no thinking. When i tried to kill myself there was no thinking, until after the pills were swallowed.

Just need some rest.

I've restarted my driving lessons, had to stop some months ago i couldn't even focus.I guess i wouldn't being wrong if i said that today was my best lesson ever.
Oh and tanks for the message Hana =]

What do you do when you have that sick death thoughts? How to stop them?
Tired of being drunk everyday. Shit... where's my beer? ))))))))))))
Cheers.

My day has been very good except for one thing:

got up in the morning went to buy somethings for my parents,then went to my grandparents house(they weren't at home).Came back and went to buy a new cellphone with my sister(the cellphone was for her),the model she wanted hadn't arrived iet.We had to run to the shop because almost time for them to close.

Now the bad part some loser painted nasty words in my building, in the mail boxes, in the main door...

YAY! HANA HAS RETURNED!

Awesome. Just great, this place was starting to stink a little without you...needed a little housekeeping.
I haven't been here in a while because I sort of gave up on Internet friendships and tried to make some real ones. Yeah that failed. I have tried to raise some people's interest in me over the past few months but yeah...here I am feeling lonely once again.
I don't have a life. Its sort of like, an existance. Not a typical 'life' at all.
I like it when I get on a roll writing stuff, I fully escape the world.
I got rejected by one literary agency but meh...that was to be expected...
I am gonna keep trying. I'm sending another package of script off to Pan Macmillian Australia to see if they will see anything special and feel like I deserve to be published...
I am going to get there one day, through persistance.
My life is a lonely one but at least there is a hope to continue.

Have been packing my things,I'm going on holidays so don't expect no posts for the next weeks

BrunoMiguel wrote:

Have been packing my things,I'm going on holidays so don't expect no posts for the next weeks

Hope you have a good holiday!

Today, Monday the second of July was spent with one of my oldest friends watching a movie, chatting and generally having a good time, tomorrow hopefully I can go over there and have some LAN games with him.
It feels good to spend some time outside of isolation. Just talking with him feels like a lift of the burden that i have to bear with having the priviledge of home schooling.

Just making a small stop at home from holidays,leaving again in some hours this time with some unpleasant company,lol

GREAT NEWS!

I was rejected by Pan Macmillan. (the publishing company) damn, fucking hell. Grrr...way to ruin my fairytale aspirations: stupid reality always coming to bite us in the ass.

Now I go in search of overseas companies, mainly those in England and try not to think about the postage fees for sending a big, inch thick wad of paper over to another country.
It might end up being cheaper for me to buy a plane ticket and deliver the manuscript in person. Haha.
Well now I am the road to writing a new short story that is actually particularly long. Good I guess, but everything I do will eventually find its way onto my free webstire where I grope blinding outwards for some feedback and fans.
www.freewebs.com/maultwilight is the place to go to rape my privacy and read my Frankenstines.

Today I'm bored, although still a little hyper from the concert the other night. It was awesome, first one I've been to. It was the family values tour and they had: Korn, Atreyu, Evanescence, Trivium, Flyleaf, and HellYeah. Korn was amaaazing! ^_^ But other then being hyper today, I'll probably just sit here.

ive had barely any sleep this past couple of days! damn A-D. stupid side effects, i feel like a non sleeping, constant gurning yawn machine on a spin cycle. but on the plus side it means i can clean the shit hole i live in so i get my bond back so i can get my lovely new house-goodtimes. but it does mean i have to pack my tardis playset away badtimes.